BREAKING OPEN

I’m breaking open my heart tonight
I’m shattering the shell
That built up around its hurting beat
That I grew to know so well

I’m letting down my walls tonight
Brick by brick their coming down
Looking out my prison cell
Where only fear was to be found

I’m asking God to be right here
As I try to set me free
From the hell of past traumatic stress
Ugly things I didn’t want to see

I’m getting on my knees to pray
As I fall down to the floor
I’m giving up my mask of strength
I can’t hold it anymore

I’m breaking open my heart tonight
Like not many, you may not know
That holding on destroys
And suppression is our foe

I’m going to get to know these gifts
Of humility and surrender
I’m tired of being static rocks
Be the river flowing instead yeh

I’m breaking open my heart tonight
I know it won’t be easy
But I’ve tried all else so it seems
And they never did please me.

My God is here right by my side
With love that blows my mind
And makes me want to open up
To treasure I know I can find.

I’m letting down my walls tonight
To whatever I have kept within
All feeling and emotion
All love, all good, all sin.

It’s in the plan to find the truth
To heal all error inside me
I’m getting on my knees tonight
To open and to find ME.

@maxinebell 2014