THE SEEKER

I am a seeker of God –

outside religion.

I am a seeker of God,

after seeking answers –

in many corners

Of my mind.

In many places –

different ‘answers:’

that didn’t give answers

to the questions

I asked.

I am a seeker of God –

outside religion.

I tried religion.

But it taught me

I was nothing, but sinner.

I have sinned.

But not from the start!

It taught me

I needed a saviour,

who wasn’t myself.

So I could get away with murder

because He wiped my slate clean,

every time.

I am a seeker of God –

but not of religion.

Religion’s God

Is angry and wrathful,

Like parents.

Religion told me,

Love and wrath

could exist side by side:

From God.

A God of Love?

Who favours?

And kills?

No logic.

In religion.

I am a seeker of God –

outside mysticism,

or magical

instantaneous transformations.

Pretty plasters over deep wounds

are all appearance.

Chakra clearing,

Fire burning the past.

It doesn’t work.

Just a game I played

for a while,

in my seeking.

No answers there.

No logic:

New age.

I am a seeker of God –

outside of ‘beliefs.’

I didn’t know it was God

I was seeking.

It was Truth

and where was Love?

It turns out that

Truth

Has a lot to do

with God.

Not ‘my’ truth,

not ‘yours:’

Absolute Truth.

It turns out that

Truth and Love

hold hands

in the heart

of God.

I am a seeker of God –

outside religion.

And it’s funny,

ironic, maybe

that Jesus

is back.

Helping me to

seek and find

God,

with new eyes.

A God far better

than religion

ever taught.

And this is Jesus –

outside of religion.

No Saviour;

No Three in One.

(what does that mean?)

He’s just a man:

A son of God,

as I am daughter.

The first man

to learn God’s True Way.

Just like,

Armstrong

was the first man on the moon.

So I am a seeker –

outside of religion,

who is finally

finding her answers,

to the millions of questions

in her heart.

I am seeking

and finding.

I am knocking

and the door is opening.

And it’s better

than I ever imagined.

It’s ALL Love:

NO anger in God.

It’s all Truth:

no mysticism in God.

You may think in my seeking

I have not found.

Or what I have said

is crazy.

But unless you ask,

you will not receive.

Unless you seek,

you will not find.

Unless you knock,

the door will not be opened.

Logic:

To find you must seek.

The arms of God

are broad and wide,

and there is room

for all.

The heart of God

is big enough

to contain all Universes: all life.

Yet He seeks

each individual…

You.

And you, and you…

and me.

A God  of awe

and wonder;

of Grace

and Mercy;

of logic and science.

A God

of creativity and intelligence.

A teacher;

a mother;

a father.

Who dreams BIG for us.

The potentials of

Divine Love and Divine Truth

received from God

are infinite and beautiful –

far beyond anything 

we currently dream. 

I am still seeking,

to know more;

to feel more.

I have a way to go.

But it doesn’t matter

how far I have to go.

It matters

how far I desire to go.

God feels my desire

and he’s preparing a feast –

for me!

“Father, I’m coming.

It might take me a while.

But Father, I’m coming…

Home.”