Hello, my name is Maxine Bell. I was born right at the end of 1966 and my birth surname was Falloon. I have also been known as Maxine Messenger and Maxine Hanson ( I had two stepdads!) It’s been hard to settle with a surname since then.
My childhood was very erratic as well as unsafe a lot. I had a lot of responsibility from a very young age. We moved frequently, but mainly in Suffolk, England for the first 11 years and then in Devon until I left home aged 18, to become a nurse and then a midwife in London. I have two younger brothers and in recent years have met two other brothers from my father’s second marriage. So I am the eldest and the only girl!
I did well as a nurse, but in the background suffered from a crippling eating disorder (which had started when I was 12) and low self esteem. As a child, I attended the local churches and when I was 17 became a born again Christian, but by the time I left home I had left the church, confused and dismayed by the contradictions and inequalities.
I muddled through the years seeking answers to my problems and looking for ways to heal, and my eating issues improved, but remained with me to different degrees for many years I became a mother when I was 28 of a beautiful boy, called Ben, who has Down’s syndrome. I loved many aspects of being his mum and struggled with many too. I write about him in a post called There is Always a Gift.
I have done a number of different jobs. I left midwifery after I had my son and did an English degree and then a teaching qualification. I taught primary and secondary school pupils for a short while, but then worked with children who had additional needs. I have also taught creative workshops to adults with learning disabilites, been a family support worker, coordinated a teenage advice clinic and worked a specialist in Learning Disabilities for a charitable organisation. So I have worked in Health, Education, Social Care and the Charity Section: lots of people stuff from 0 to death!
I am certified life coach and am currently trying to set up my own coaching business and am going to do some further training soon as a climate change and nature coach so that I can help others examine the reasons that stop them from caring about their environment. I am passionate about the environment so very excited by this.
I also love writing so you will find poems and analogies on some of my posts. I’ve been writing out my feelings in this way since I was a teenager.
In my seeking, I tried therapy, self help books, affirmations, hypnotherapy, visted mediums, looked at different beliefs/religions and so on. I made a lot of bad choices over the years, a few good ones, but was not good at self care and fell into some dark holes along the way.
Then in my early 40’s, following two traumatic miscarriages, I looked again and found a yoga class, which led to meditation, which led to lots of other New Age experiments and experiences. But about 4 years in, I was in a very questioning place again: too much mysticism, too many contradictions and went home and screamed out to the sky “God, if you exist, if you’re listening I want the truth, the real, absolute truth! I am sick of the lies and pretending. I want the truth!”
Within 24 hours, I got a response, much to my surprise, when a friend sent me a link to a talk called The Secrets of the Universe. There were actually 4 videos, totally over 8 hours. I watched them all – I couldn’t stop: something hit my heart big time. This was it! This was the Truth. That was in early 2012 and by wonderful synchronicity Jesus and Mary were visiting the UK two weeks later. I went and I haven’t looked back since.
I sat on the fence in some areas for a while as I let go of the New Age beliefs I had held and also got my head round the idea that this is Jesus. I haven’t struggled as much as some, because when I was 17 I had already come to the conclusion the church had got him wrong and I doubted he was God. Turns out my feelings were right. But the teachings were so amazing, that minor details didn’t take priority for a while.
You can still listen to the teachings and not believe he is Jesus – for a while, but it is actually an important detail and explains very well why he knows so much! Besides the fact that he and Mary walk their walk – they don’t just teach the Way, they demonstrate every day with their love, their honesty, humility and the way they live their lives. Their passion for God, their knowledge and generosity is there for all to see.
My journey on this path has not been a smooth one, because it has confronted me with lots of things I have wanted to forget and suppress – as you will see from my blogs, but nothing has impacted me as much.
My perspective on life, my relationship to others and to my environment and my curiousity about God changed after I found the Divine Truth teachings. I am learning that I matter and that what I do matters; that I have a choice to love or deny love in every moment; to be truthful or not; to change or not.
I have been to a number of talks in person now and in 2019 spent time in Australia on the Volunteer Selection Programme. Spending time, experiencing God’s Way was a powerful experience and I came home a bit shocked, but am now pulling myself back together and making changes in my life to challenge the person I have become because of my emotional injuries.
The Divine Truth teachings are a real gift to us, more than I can currently understand and I wanted to be involved in sharing it with the world in some way. I am very much a work in progress and have been resistant to making any big changes in my life because fear has become my God, but the feedback I received last year has helped and I feel more willing and open.
I would like to demonstrate that us old stick in the muds can do this: that we can break down our facade’s even if we have had it for 50 years. I am inspired by those, who are truly on the Way, opening to God and themselves and living a very different, happier life: one that is not only more loving to themselves, but to everyone around them.
So I am really at the beginning of actively working with what I have been taught. But, if you are interested in Divine Truth or in anything that I write about I encourage you to look at the About Divine Truth and Resources page. There you will find information from the teachers of Divine Truth, plus others who are sincerely on God’s Way of Love.
Be open: it’s wonderful and I hope that despite the imperfections in this blog that you gain some insight, some inspiration and desire to seek for yourself.
If you have any questions, you can contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org
With love, Maxine