PRECIOUS MOMENTS

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There are precious moments in some of my days when I feel I can touch the edges of heaven. Moments that come unexpectedly. I close my eyes and breath in these moments and hold onto them, breath them in.Sometimes it is words I have read or heard, a movie I have watched, music I have heard or the beauty of the natural world, that grasp my hand and heart and drift into my soul where the echo of knowing that these things truly are. It’s not easy to put feelings into words, but there is a longing, a yearning and yet a faint memory from sleep state and dreams of other places: beautiful places, familiar and waiting. Greater hopes and the building blocks of faith start here, and my heart sighs with wonder and relief that these things are, these places exist and most of all that the Universe we live in beats with the pulse of Love in all that is created.

I used to remember these places more clearly in my sleep state and now it is rare, sadly, but there are other sources of information that allow me to dream and know.  what I can see clearly, as what I have experienced seems so small compared to the expanse indicated. There has been a more consistent shift in me to really feel the truth of life that goes beyond the grave, the infinite possibilities of such a life, the infinite possibility of a life I can have,even here on earth . This awareness helps me pull myself out of false beliefs and negative influence a bit quicker to search for God’s truth on the matter. I have been wondering about the truth of God, looking for evidence, that He is good, loving, kind and steadfast.  I have been remembering those places that I can see sometimes in my third eye. I have been reading wonderful books that reveal more of God, more of the full story of life, of love. Funny things like making a poster to tell me that God’s truth is I am “the most wondrous of his creations.” Some of you may think this is a comfort blanket, but for me it is important. I have believed so much bad of myself, so much of what I was told I have believed to be true – that I am unimportant, bad, never good enough. I have believed it so much it has become destructive addictions that have made my life a painful existence instead of a fully vibrant life of discovery, joy and love. I have believed what my injured parents told me, when they only spoke through injury not truth. And living in these false beliefs, especially as addictions, is just a way to avoid the truth that maybe God sees me as wonderful and a tender child of His. It helps me avoid the grief I need to feel about all those projections, all the fears I have that it may have been true. 

I need to re-educate my hurt self and to discover truth beyond what this wounded world shows me. The funny thing is the evidence is all around me, under the dust and dirt of this world. It is like when I walk on paving stones and then discover a small flower growing through the cracks: strong, vulnerable beauty pushing up to be seen. I wonder at it’s little power, it continual effort to exist and remind me of what is real. Only love can create that; the light in the darkness.

I am on my second reading of the Robert James Lee Trilogy of channelled books. Lee channels a spirit called Aphraar (Frederick Winterleigh whilst on earth). Aphraar has a passion to share the truth about the spirit world and earth with the world and tells the story of his passing and his existence and experiences in the spirit world, in order for us to have a greater understanding of what life and all it’s wondrous possibilities is about and tell the truth about God. I find reading them just breathtaking at times. The truths shared, the images created, the love revealed behind what he experiences and observes in spirit world just wonderful. Even in the darkest corners of hell Love acts, waits and hopes. For me, these books, reach into my heart and my imagination of what is possible and what is already existing for many. I also, know that my understanding of what he is telling is minimal to the true wonder of it all.

And why should I believe these books? Many would dismiss them as having no evidence in fact. But what arrogance do we speak from? What gods so we believe ourselves to be in that because we have not seen it ourselves or touched it, it is not real. We can’t see air, but it exists. I can’t see the world is round so I have to trust that the photos I have seen, what others have seen make be true. There are many things I have not experienced myself, but I know to be true through other people’s evidence. All I know is I have a feeling about the books that let me believe what I read. My soul is touched by the love demonstrated, but also by the sense and logic in the tales of the different lives of different spirits- from those earthbound to those living in the heavens. I have also spoken to spirits through mediumship so my experience has given me evidence of their existence, of life beyond the grave.

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We are just afraid often by things we don’t understand and we live in it. Yet, there is so much to discover and I am grateful for these moments, these precious moments. One of my favourite chapters in the first book – “Through the Mists,” is the chapter about a poetess. It is a poetess that Aphraar was inspired by in his earth life and now gets to meet in spirit world. She demonstrated great faith in her poetry and helped his own faith in times when he felt very alone in his pursuits. In this chapter, Aphraar describes her home “like a realised dream in which some weary painter, musician or poet  had sought – and found – rest.” He describes the gardens:

“Here, Color had wooed, won, and lived in sweet fidelity with Music. Before me lay the natal bowers of Beauty, Enchantment, Harmony, Grace and Rhythm, each of whom held court in one or other of the hundred odorous halls of grove, or hill or mountain.Echo and Song chanted roundelay upon the heights for which the lake rippled its approbation in silvern tones; birds of dreamlike plummage warbled their anthems of evergreen luxuriance..the heavens unrolled their canopy of atmospheric tones and tints which have no names or counterparts on earth.” This is not the Nature of earth – it is beyond that in beauty and grace. As a painter and a lover of nature, I tried to imagine this place. It was like one of those photo-shop images I have seen: more vibrant, more alive, more harmonious. The ones I have posted and others have groaned “oh that’s been photo-shopped.” A groan of despair that such a place could ever truly exist. But why not? Why stay stuck believing “What the eye can’t see…” What would a blind man say to that?

As I read this description for the second and then third time I felt my breath, my eyes close to “see” such a place. I remembered my sleep state experiences where I have visited, in the past, different places, but two in particular stand out as places I have been to many times. One,  I sit by a river, with huge stones in it, the water dancing over them. There is small green bridge. The grass on either bank is a dark, but vivid, lush green: a thick warm rug underneath me. I am sitting by an old tree, looking out and up to beautiful mountains in the distance; the sky is blue and the light bright. I feel peaceful here and sometimes animals come and visit.it is so alive! In the background I can hear children’s laughter. Flowers grow among the grass, and happiness is a regular companion.

The other place is a small, sandy beach surrounded by tropical plants and forests. There is wooden hut there, with beautiful hangings. Again I am surrounded by beautiful mountains too, which rise up around and beyond the water. The sand is warm and dolphins greet me, playfully from the sea, which is deep and wide, light dancing off it’s surface. I often sit just letting sand trickle through my fingers, reflecting, breathing, resting. I haven’t been there for a while.

In the previous chapter, Aphraar has discovered that when we sleep on earth, our spirit bodies do travel and do have real experiences and he has just be reacquainted with many friends, many people who he helped when he was on earth. He has remembered all of  his sleep state and so is now meeting those he knew then. The poet is one of them. Her poems had “been almost my only companions in the solitude of earth life. She seemed to understand life, as I knew it, with its deep soul longings and unalleviated heartaches, like an almost kindred soul, but she had conquered and found a calm for which I vainly searched.” He discovered after her death that her upbringing had been “an education in the ministry of love,” as her father’s faith was deep. She related her own growing faith and closeness to God in her poetry and she inspired Aphraar to have faith as “she glided heavenward she sang- told all her deep experiences, reflected back again the sunlight which fell upon her soul, thus her voice came with wonderfully soothing influence upon the storms and troubles which encompassed me.” And now here he was on the same level – both passed from earth and experiencing the spirit life and he shares his wonderful experience meeting her again and learning what she had to teach.

She shares that despite her faith when she passed she had to realise the error of some of her beliefs that she would travel straight to God, to the highest heavens. She describes her experience of learning that we must climb step by step carefully and embrace each step, waiting for God to know when it is right for us to climb higher. There is a portion of a beautiful poem called “Waiting.” (p189). It ends in the book: ( though this is not the full poem)

“Oh, the vision would o’er power us,/ If it suddenly were given/ So we wait in preparation/ In the vestibule of heaven.” Aphraar was memorized and thrilled by her reading of her poetry, done with such longing and passion. He describes “Her recital was a calm confession of trust in God…she lingered over each recurring ‘waiting’ as if she drew from its deep spring the full sweetness of the assurance that ‘they too serve who only stand and wait,’ and was reluctant to turn away from the refreshing draught. She had forgotten me – everything save her God…” He was speechless for a while, in the presence of her ecstasy.

When they converse again, she shares her knowledge of the many stages of progression to God, that they may be infinite. She lives in a beautiful home already, but knows she can not even fully comprehend the beauty that is to come as she grows closer to God, even though some of her friends have tried to describe it. He asks, “When you think of such a consummation, do you not wish for the intervening stages to hasten by that you may obtain it?”

“Yes; and yet, no!” she answers. “That is the absolute ideal of every true soul, which, in common with them, I am anxious to reach. But at present I have not the capacity to appreciate and enjoy it, so the gift would be too overpowering and would only crush, instead of elevate me. You must remember that one who has been successfully operated on for blindness can only, be initiated into the light by degrees. We have all been blind, and God’s light will only come as we are able to bear it.”

She has learnt “every step I take towards Him becomes another messenger to me, bearing some fresh revelation of His love, every halting-place becomes another unfoldment, and every message quietly expands my soul into a closer likeness of Himself.”

Their whole conversation is full of treasures, full of information about God and God’s workings. It lifts my spirit, my gratitude and my curiosity to find out more. It encourages me to be patient, to let myself experience the steps on this journey, even the “halting-places” – of which, I have many right now. It also helps me feel God has a home waiting for me too and to have faith in that, based on what I discover, will help me never give up.

It’s tough a lot of the time still as I still resist and avoid, when I should surrender and trust. Books like this, words like this, information like all help me, nourish and feed my soul, educate me about love ( for which I am not even at kindergarten level). Many of us think we know about God – what He is or isn’t through our indoctrination or our complete denial He exists, but often we haven’t even investigated or questioned our beliefs, haven’t looked around at our world and searched for the answers ourself. What I have found as my desire increases, more books, films, music and teachings cross my path. I notice them and they are the jewels that are thrown on the rocky path I still choose a lot of the time right now: they are the precious moments that make my soul sing and for those brief minutes allow me to feel the possibilities open to me, the gifts God has waiting for me… when I am ready to receive them. I am the horse, God is the water… He will not force me to drink, but will long for me to thirst so that I may taste the pure waters of truth, the divine sup of Love.

So I start to see beyond my small, small world. Open the door a little and see the crack of brilliant light beyond. The door is heavy, but I really I am weak. I have a feeling this door is only as heavy as I believe it to be.

Maxine

WAITING

Waiting now upon the threshold,

Just within the porch of life;

Safe from all the storms and tempests,-

Hushed the discord and the strife;

Stilled the heart of its wild beatings,

Calmed the hot and fevered brain

Waiting now, and resting sweetly,

‘Til the Master comes again.

Waiting, where the rippling wavelets

Of life’s river lave my feet;

Washing off the stains of travel,

Ere the Master I may greet;

Till the voice is full and mellow,

And I learn the sweet, new song;

Till the discord is forgotten,

That disturbed my peace so long.

Waiting, till the wedding garment,

And the bridal wreath is here;

Till our Father’s feast is ready,

And the bridegroom shall appear

Till the seeds of life have blossomed,

And the harvest-home we sing.

Gathering up my life’s long labours

For my bridal offering.

Oh! ’tis not as men would teach us- 

Just one step from earth to God;

Passing through the death-vale to Him,

In the garb that earth we trod;

Called to praise Him while aweary,

Or to sing, while yet the voice

With love’s farewell sob is broken,

Could we, fitly, thus rejoice?

No! we wait to learn the music,

Wait, to rest our weary feet;

Wait to learn to sweep the harp-strings

Ere the Master shall we meet;

Wait to tune our new-found voices

To the sweet seraphic song;

Wait to learn the time and measure,

But the time will not be long.

Wait to understand the glory

That will shortly be revealed

Till our eyes can bear the brightness

When the book shall be unsealed.

Oh! the vision would o’er power us,

If it suddenly were given

So we wait in preparation,

In the vestibule of heaven…. 

(By the Poetess, Chapter XVII, Through the Mists by Robert James Lee)

 

 

 

 

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The Truth about Spirit World: as much as I know……Part 1

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I feel to respond on an article going round and round Facebook called “9 Things you realise after you die”. It is channelled information from a brother who has passed telling his sister what he has experienced. I respond from information from teaching that hit me right in the soul as truth, and confronted me a bit at first, but I feel absolutely to be truth now and from my own experience in conversations and visions with spirit humans ( ie those who have left their physical bodies behind)…. I have quite a bit to say so bear with me……… I really feel its time we knew the truth and used that truth to empower us and help ourselves and those brothers and sisters in the spirit world because we are much more entangled than we know.
The first thing I want to say is that there is not just one place you end up in when you pass in to spirit world. The spirit world has many many spheres ( about 36 currently and each spheres has many other layers. The barriers between the spheres are love barriers and prevent those whose soul condition is lesser than others going up to higher spheres to cause damage. This brings me to the point that when we pass into spirit world where we go depends on our soul condition ( ie how much love or lack of love is in our soul exists) and also the beliefs systems we had when we passed. The lowest sphere is the first sphere and contains the hells up to places that are similar to nicer places on earth. Life on earth is pretty much in this “vibration” if you want to think of it like this. It doesn’t mean there aren’t a few people on earth in a higher sphere condition, but as a whole we are in a very unloving state. All these spheres were actually created by us. God created us in a 6th sphere condition and gave us free will: the biggest gift we could be given to experience life as we chose. Unfortunately, we chose to abandon our parent and try to be come gods ourselves… this has darkened our condition and each generation passes on the unloving beliefs and wounds onto the next. The truth is many who pass stay earthbound either attached to things, people, places or to feed their addictions either physical or emotional. These spirits frequently influence our thoughts, behaviours or feelings because they can see our spirit bodies and the emotions in us. Some spirits, such as our guides, are loving in their suggestions, but many are not. You will know this if you are trying to give up a physical addiction, for instance, and for some reason you find it impossible. Good chance there are some spirits getting their “fix” via you.
Do not feel fearful, these are just humans, lost, misguided and sometimes just plan unloving – as on earth – they need to find a different way.
Now I will respond on each point in the article and I hope Billy himself may listen and continue to experiment with his life in spirit world to discover more truth.
1. Billy says, “ Life on earth isn’t a punishment for your past transgressions.”
No life on earth isn’t a punishment for our past transgressions. Life on earth is about experiencing ourself  and learning about love. Before we came here we were part of a whole soul, happy but unaware of our individual nature. The soul splits into two to incarnate and discover this “self”. Yes the two halves are soul mates and can come back together but that is a whole other subject. However, we do not just get away with our transgressions/sins/unloving behaviour. There is always a consequence on our soul for every action and thought that is loving or unloving. Love expands our soul. Unloving behaviour shrinks our soul and is subject to the Law of compensation. At some point we have to face the truth of our unloving behaviours, repent and atone for them.
2. Billy says, “You chose your life circumstances before you were born for soul-type reasons that are almost impossible to understand while you’re on earth.”

No you don’t. Your parents attract a soul that will allow them to heal; allow them to see what is unhealed and unloving in their soul. Children are our great reflections and teachers. As I have said before, we incarnate to experience our self, discover our attributes, our personality, our passions and desires. We are most often suppressed as children in one way or another , so currently on earth many of us don’t discover much about our true nature, but live often in our wounded or façade self.

The other truth is we don’t keep reincarnating: we don’t need to to progress. When we get to the highest spheres and reunite with our other half in soul union, we may if we choose return to earth: but it is a choice and in fact an incredible act of love to return to earth in its current low condition. Jesus and Mary are one soul who have done so in the  last 50 years. Jesus, being the first to ever reincarnate throughout earth’s history. The beliefs we have about reincarnation actually create a lot of harm as many spirits overcloak babies in their belief in reincarnation: this is not loving, whatever the intention. I had to ponder this one for many months because of all the past life memories I had had. I now know that what I felt were in fact the lives of spirits trying to develop a rapport with me. I have been tuned in spirits all my life without knowing and now thankfully, I can talk to them and find out even more truth and share with them what I know: a mutual learning experience

3. Billy says, “Everything changes.”

Well that is a universal truth I won’t argue with. In spirit world these changes manifest instantly. For example, if you pass with a lot of anger in your soul, you have a good chance of starting off in the hells. And there you stay until your are truthful with yourself that your anger is unloving/repent and/or you call for help. The moment you call for help it is there. In fact there is help always available even to the most evil of spirits, but it is often not seen or wanted, if you want to hold onto emotions like anger. If you are willing to face the truth of your soul condition in this state and work through your anger your location in the spirit world will change instantly to a better one. Your outward appearance will also instantly change ( the hells are good for your looks). In this way you can see instant progress ( or degradation if you choose). In our material world it takes a bit of time to see the changes.

4. Billy says, “Life is great, even the hard parts. And we all do things that we call mistakes. But so-called mistakes are okay. They’re just part of the earth deal.

Yes life is great and life is as important in spirit world as it is here. In fact spirit existence is just a continuation of our life. And yes God is very okay with us making mistakes. Mistakes may still have consequences though on our soul condition and we still may need to forgive or repent. But mistakes  are also part of the spirit existence, a part of life.

5. Billy says, “You’re meant to engage in all kinds of things on earth, things that may not make sense from a human point of view. So, take a moment before you judge yourself or your fellow man too harshly. Being completely non-judgmental while you’re alive is very advanced, though. You’d have to be a Buddha to be that advanced.

This engagement is true and this engagement continues in spirit world. God wants us to experiment and discover ourselves and truth – God’s truth. He also wants us to experience love – God’s love eventually. God is also happy to tell us everything, but in order to do we have to let go of false beliefs and errors in our soul. When we clear out the not so good stuff we can be filled with more truth and love. I totally agree with the no judgement comment. God does not judge and never did: that is a man made concept.
Buddha is more advanced than us on earth but he stuck in the 6th sphere ( a very nice place) because he won’t believe in God, which is an error in his soul, so he is a very good condition, but not perfected. Therefore there are many millions more advanced than him in the spheres above the 6th sphere.

We can only get above the 6th sphere if we develop a desire to know God, our parent, and ask to receive her love, to help us progress in love. Sorry but only self responsibility works in our progress: self reliance does NOT. The 7th sphere is the transition into the 8th where we become celestial beings. Yes all angels are advanced, totally healed, immensely loving humans. God doesn’t create “special people” or races. All are equal.

6. Billy says, “There isn’t only one right way for things to turn out.”

This is true of course. God gave us free will. We can progress or regress. We can be loving and happy or unloving and pretend happy/unhappy. There are many outcomes to our choices. However, God desires us to progress, to know him, to experience his unconditional love and truth, and to create and have everything we want. So does he want endless bliss for us? Of course – she loves us beyond anything.

7. Billy says, “Society teaches limitation. No matter what you’ve been taught, everything you ever need is already inside you. And who you really are is far beyond your comprehension. That’s why living squeezed into the human experience can be painful at times.”

Yes this is true : we have a very, very limited view of our possibilities. However, it is not all inside us. We have a physical body, a spirit body and a soul. Our soul has all our attributes, talents, desires, passions, emotions, personality, and more in it. So in that way we our there waiting. But, as I have said we shrink or expand the experience of knowing our soul depending on what we experience as a child, which affects our soul growth and then how we react to those effects. To expand we have to FEEL all the soul damage done to us and release it. When we release the error it makes more room for love and truth and increases our ability to create positive experiences for ourselves. We are not squeezed into our human experience as such: but we have made it that by our self reliance, unloving acts and rebellion against God and the gifts he gave us. We have shrunken ourselves and are just as capable of expanding our experience and endless possibilities as much in the physical body as we are in the spirit world.

8. Billy says, “At the center of everything is an energy, an immaterial material called LOVE. Wow, and how good it feels, this LOVE. You can’t imagine it. You really can’t. There is no way for you to experience the full power of LOVE while you’re on this plane”

At the center of everything is God, our creator and parent: Mother/Father God. And God is full of more love than we can comprehend. And in spirit world there are many loving spirits and guides who are there to help us and choose to share their love with us. God is not an energy, but an entity: a live, eternal, vibrant, incredible being. We have many false beliefs about God and they create blocks to us knowing God and receiving her love. God is not judgmental or punishing, or angry or fearful. Unconditional love is one of her attributes, as is creativity, passion, playfulness and much more. And it is not true you can experience the full power of love on earth: we just haven’t chosen that. Jesus is the only one so far to have healed everything in him, received God’s love and become at one with God on earth: hence the amount of love in him, as well as his healing abilities and truthful teaching ( the biblical version is not the correct truth).

9. Billy says, “Death isn’t as serious as you think it is. It’s actually very enjoyable. Couldn’t be better really. And saying goodbye to the people you love isn’t as serious as it seems either, because you will meet again.”

Well it isn’t death really : well only our physical body and God didn’t intend for that to die so soon. We die from our emotional injuries. Every illness, pain or disease or disability is caused by an emotional injury in ourselves or inherited from our parents. And yes if you chose to be loving, show a willingness to heal and feel the error in us, and progress in harmony with God’s laws, then yes you can have a party in spirit world: you can experience an endless amount of things and emotions. God made us emotional beings and yet life on earth and the lower spheres of spirits invests in suppressing our emotions: we are working against our own soul design and it is painful. And yes we can meet those we have known on earth if their own soul condition permits and if they won’t harm us. The truth is many of us will probably not chose to see many of our earthly family again and instead chose to hang out with brothers and sisters we have things in common with. We are all Gods’ children anyway.

If you are interested in finding out more there are wonderful channelled books from spirits such as “Wandering in the Spirits Lands” and “Through the Mists” Also go to the Divine Truth Channel on youtube or the website divinetruth.com where there are talks and many mediumship experiences with spirits to listen to.  There you will find much more information, from a brother and sister much more advanced in  love than me.

Thank you so much for listening and know that I share this with love and in the my desire for us all to know the truth.

Maxine Bell